For you, Paddo.


1. Full name: Samantha Alane MacInnis

2. Nicknames: Sam, Sammi, Samo, Sammo-kun, sammy-kun, Samphonse, Samwise....

3. Eyes: Blue, icy blue I guess

4. Height: 5'4 (still...)

5. Age: 13 more days and I'll be sixteen. So, fifteen

6. Hair: Blonde

7. Siblings: Jeremy 14, Jorden 12 (my step-siblings are no longer related to me)

8. Do u like to sing in the shower?: ...yeah...

9. Do u like to sing: Yes, alot.

10. Birthday: April 24

11. Sign: Taurus

12. Address: You wish...

13. Sex?: uh...female...if you wanna know the gender

14. Righty or Lefty: Right

15. What do you want in a relationship most?: Who knows. never really been in one....

16. Have you ever cheated?: That's just not possible now is it?

17. Marital status: Single… I have a feeling I’m going to stay that way, too.

18. Do you have a car?: No.

19. What kinda car do you want ? A Mustang (hehe)

20. Number: It was 13, until everyone else liked it. Now it's 7 or 5.

21. Movie: don't know, there's a few....ROBIN HOOD!!! DISNEY STYLE!!

22. Songs: Bokura no Love Style, Fields of Hope, Kids of America, Hikari, Passion, Pride, Rewrite, Ignited, Yura Yura, All Star, Shissou and many others...

23. Singer/Band: Asian Kung Fu Generation, Utada Hikaru, Fiction Junction Yuuka, Rie Fu, T.M.Revolution, High and Mighty Colour

24. Actor: Johnny Depp

25. Actress: Kirstun Dunst, or Liv Tyler

26. Cartoon: depends. If it's anime, then it's Gundam Seed/GSD (followed by FMA, Bleach, Eureka 7 Ouran high School Host Club and Fruits Basket). Cartoons...would have to be Max and Ruby =) 

27. Disney Character: Robin Hood

28. Do you plan on having kids? Fuck no...well, maybe...so I can name them awesome names...unless it's my alien baby who belongs to my alien lover Queldar (sp?)

29. Would you have kids before marriage? Probably. I'll end up accidently pregnant and will beat someone while my vagina rips oepn to unleash the demon within. Besides Queldar #1.

30. How old do you wanna be when you are married? I don't really wanna get married...

31. Where do u want to get married: If I had to choose, in an abandoned church with just the guy and a priest. Or on a beach, with just us three again.

32.Do u believe in love at first sight? No. How can you truely love someone you don't really know?

33. Do u have a b/f or g/f: I've got my lesbian soulmate Britty, my alien (male) lover Queldar, and my imaginary boyfriend Lucian. Take your pick.

34. What is his or her name? I just said so. Britty, Queldar and Lucian.

35. Do you have a crush: No. (well...anime characters...) 

36. Music/TV: Music !!

37. Guys/Girls: Guys

38. Green/Blue: Blue.

39. Pink/Purple: Purple

40. Summer/Winter: It depends. I like them both when it's the appropiate time of year.

41. Night/Day: I think I'm more inclined to day, if only because I get scared of the dark. But I love laying outside and looking at the stars.

42. Hangin Out/Chillin:...is there really a difference?

43. Dopey/Funny: Funny.

44. You know I'm around when you hear: "HOMIGOAWD!!! I'VE BEEN RAPED!" "..the baby's acting up again" "my lesbian soulmate!" "Brotherrrrr!" "Hikaru!" "I'm hungry..."

45. What school do u go to? Newmarket High School 

46. What is your favourite radio station? Surprisingly, tje radio in Ontario sucks, so I'll have to stick with the Winnipeg stations. (probably Power97)

47. What's a major turn on? eyeliner, sexy smile, nice hair, nice back, nice hands, nice waist

48. Who was your celeb crush? Johnny Depp. The sexiest (real) man out there

49. MosT blonde: uh...me?

50. NiCeSt: In general, it'd have to be Beth. She's nice to everyone. Or so I think...

51. FuNnIeSt: Jill, with the amazing ability to quote everything and anything.

52. TaLLeSt: Beth.

53. BeSt pErSoNaLiTy: Do I have to choose?

54. Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? The list has changed...but really, Brittany, my mum and my youngest brother (I'm weird, I know)

55. What do you think of soul mates?: …where are you Brittany....my lesbian soulmate ^_^

56. Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? Not really...but what to I know? 

57. What was the last thing you cried over or got tears from? Uh....I just finished reading Fruits Basket volume 16, and I cried when Tohru's dad died.

58. What's something about guys/girls you don't get: Breasts. What's so great about them?

59. Who are your best friends: It's weird answering this question these days....so I won't...

60. What's an object you can't live without?: ipod. call me materialistic, but i love that thing.

61. Love or Lust:? love, i guess. i could do without the sex. unless I was a guy.....

62. Silver or gold: Silver

63. Diamond or pearl: pearl

64. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset

65. Have you ever gone camping? Yes. It was hell. I hate camping.

66. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Edward Elric is not an animal....but he is stuffed....I love my artard Ed...

67. Do you have any piercings: Yeah, people just don't notice often

68.What are you watching? the keyboard as I type

69. What song are u listening to right now? Tears by Lisa (from Gundam Seed Destiny special edition)

70: What's the last 4 digits of your phone number: 0233

71. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? Japan!!

72. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?: ...someone who won't intentionaly hurt me, someone who'll love me for who i am

73. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Hands, shoulders, and eyes

74.a) Favourite sports? hahaha....we all know this answer.

b) Favourite Art? Writing, then singing, then drawing

75. What makes you happy? Sunny days, music, Brittany and friends

76. What's the next cd/s you're gonna get? The Digimon Movie Soundtrack

77. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Glasses

78. Do you have a idol? No. I refuse to.

79.Have you ever won any special awards? Uh....honour roll a few times....

80. What are your future goals? These days, I have no clue. To be famous in the end, I guess. Or to publish something.

81. Worst sickness u ever had? the cold so bad i couldn't talk for three days. That was definitly worse than bronchitis. Unless you wanna count depression *grin*

82. Do u have any enemies? Probably… I wouldn't put it past people to hate me, I'm sure I'm annoying...

83. Would you rather be rich or famous? Famous

84. What time is it now? 9:18 pm

85. Have you ever been in love? Yeah, I guess so.

86. Have you met santa?? Yeah, my mum.

87. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign and asked to use your phone: I'm quite sure I scream and start crying. That movie scared the fuck outta me as a kid

88. Do u have any pets?: My dog Sandy lives with my dad and brothers

89. Are you an alcoholic? No. I don't drink.

90. Favourite non-alcoholic drink: Coke

91. Favourite alcoholic drink: Out of the four things I've tried, Rum.

92. What are you wearing? Does anyone care?

93. What colour underwear do you have on? Degrading....lime green....

94. What books are you reading right now? Managa wise, just finished FMA 13, Fruits Basket 16 and a yaoi manga. Bookwise...I need a new book...

95. Did you do much last night? Went to see Meet the Robinsons with Britt again

96. Last movie you watched: Meet the Robinsons

97. Who sent this to you: Ahahaha, I stole this from a story on fictionpress. 

98. What do you think of this person?: Well, their writing is okai...

99. Do you want your friends to send this back: It'll probably amuse me.

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Ahh, lovely, now cloudy day. Here I am at my computer, trying my hardest to both finish my homework and procrastinate.

If anyone's wondering, I took the day off so I could get most of my assignments done. (All but two are due next week. The two are now late, but alas, that's just how it is.)

So yeah, I'm sitting here downloading music and feel happy for no reason.

Oh, now I remember why. I talked to Lianne last night. And in Art yesterday, I was sleepy and mildly depressed, and Quin said "Did you take your pills today?" And I said "yeah..." and he said "I like you better without your pills then, because you're happier without them," 

I sat there stunned for a few moments before explaining that my pills do make me happier and I was just tired. And I mean, after that I was pretty happy. I'll do anything for you Quin.

 I was stunned though. Only Shayne has ever (although rarely) said something like that to me, that's the first time a guy has paid real attention to me like that.

If you haven't caught on yet, Quin is my newest obsession. No one will replace Shayne, I mean, I am his personal stalker, but Quin is Quin, and has very nice hair. I like him, it's that simple. Even if I hate admitting it.

But I can admit Roy Mustang is a sexy beast. I swear Roy, give me an order and I'll follow it. I'll let you be my commanding officer...

So yeah. I'm insane. But that's okay, I like me like this.

So, there was snow on the ground this morning. Only where the shadow's were, but still. It invoked a feeling of joy. (Be forarned, invoke is my newest favorite word. Although I do still love ostentatious.)

Hey Paddo, that was pretty sweet talking to you on msn. Go on again soon.

Ah, I love Asian Kung-Fu Generation. Such a good band.

You know what, I would do Roy Mustang, even if he is ten years older than me..roughly, give or take a few years....and even though he's a fictional person ....

I'm going to Vaughn MIlls Mall today. It is the coolest mall I have ever been to. It's clean, and has the neatest decorations, and reakky expensive stored. I like going in them and ranting about how expensive things are and who in their right mind would buy a $100.00 shirt? Then getting dirty glares from people by comparing Toronto and Winnipeg, and acting like a tourist.

It's all fun and games though, mind you.

I miss my Brittward TT_TT I need somebody to huggle... and the person is Brittany until I see Shayne again and can glomp him non-stop.

So yesh. I should probably do my homwork so I can go to the mall...with my mother. Toodle - loo

(love me my dirty ho's.)

PEACE! LOVE TIMMYHO!

Woooh. Aesthetics and Identity has been updated. But since no one reads it I won't post it.

Actually, the main point of this post was put up a picture of one of my characters. But before I do that...

I finally, offically have a job. After three months of grovleing and searching, I finally got hired.

I am so happy. It may be at Tim Hortens, but who cares. I'm now going to have my own money and won't have to bum off my parents. Ah sweet jesus, I can afford to have Birttany make me cosplay costumes and t-shirts.

Which reminds me, I'm getting my Alphonse coat tomorrow! Birttany made it! Not that anyone knows who Alphonse is, but he's an anime character. I like Ed better though.

Happy happy jopy joy. However, I need to do my lab or I'll be in shit.  And I'd like to spend my lunch fixing my rt project or hanging out with Jill, Elizabeth and Andrea.

Brittant's having an anime halloween party the friday before halloween. Full Metal Alchemist Movie (Tall Ed, Roy Mustang with an eyepathc!) here I come.

God please, somebody help me. I am totally in love with SexyBack. and I can't stop myself. I can't help it, he sounds so gay and it's just a dirty song and it makes the best music to write a sex scene to. I need an intervention.

Newmarket Highschool is full of rich, stuck-up snobs who have fun by getting drunk of Friday nights. They all wear Abercrombie and Fitch, FCUK, and other designer clothes. It seriously scares me. I prefer West 49, Old Navy and occasionally American Eagle. Oh and H&M, because as Lena says, they have very interesting clothes.

I have about five friends, and four pseudo friends. Jill, who loves anime and yaoi andis very good at drawing it. Helen, who has dreadlocks and loves heavy metal and is very amusing. Elisabeth, who so far seems very nice, Andrea, who is also nice, and actually funny. Then there's Beau, who wears alot of FCUK, is probably gay and is on very good terms with Carolyn Phillips, who greatly scares me and pisses me off. She's my new arch-nemisis and she doesn't even know it. And there's also Brittany, who I think is eighteen, and is absolutly fucking amazing at drawing, and also loves anime. She does cosplay, and designs t-shirts. She's amazing and I love her. There is Jurita, who is asian and cool, and Beth, who is Brittany's best friend and is seventeen. My pseudo friends are Aerin, Anna, Adelaide and some other people I can't remember.

I'm going to China Town with Jill tomorrow to buy some yaoi manga. It'll be my first time going to the city alone, so it'll be cool.

I've got everything here, but I'm not happy. I want to come back and see you guys, Padfoot and NIcky. Maybe I'm being unrealistic and hoping things will be like they always were. But, we're older now, but then again, who knows. Maybe we'd still get along the way we used to. I like to think we will.

I don't know why I can't be happy. I've got a huge ass room, a huge bedroom, a babysitting job, a possible job at Tim Hortens (dear god, save me), friends and cool courses, but I just can't be happy.

I wanna leave and go to a different country. Start somewhere new with nothing from my old life. Without my parents, family and everything. I can't wait till I can move out. But then I can.

Whatever. If I've learnt anything, it's that you need to try to be happy. You just can't sit back and let yourself be happy. I'm just not a naturally happy person. So I gotta try. It's hard, because living is such a depressing concept, but it's all I have. All I have is this life and all I can do is make it through. I refuse to give up.

I miss you Padfoot. I miss how we used to just lay on my bed and do nothing. Or how we'd watch movies downstairs together. YOur presence was always extremely comforting. And I miss you too Nicky, how we'd to the same, how I'd nuzzle the shit out of you and watch tv with you. I miss just being with you guys and being happy. But I can't tell if I'm longing for the past or for your presence.

I complain too much.

I went to the school today, to get my locker, schedule and pay the fees.

There were so many kids for nine in the morning. It creeped me out.

Everybody has friends. They all came to the school and did their shit with their friends. I went with my parents. I got over-stimulated and stressed out.

Then I got pissed off, because I want to start school with friends. I want to be back in Winnipeg and start Vincint Massey with my friends. I want to be in Selkirk and start the Comp. with everyone. I want to be back with my friends, eveyone from Selkirk and Winnipeg. I don't want to start over again.

But, I am. Suck it up Sam.

Even though I know I'll be fine (I've done this what, five times now?), I still like to bitch about it. And my eye keeps twitching. From being tired, I suppose.

I'm tired and my toe is aching. Here's some old poems to enjoy. (By old I mean a few weeks.)

One more week and school starts.

Hmm, it'll be nice to interact with other people for the first time in weeks.

My legs are sore from digging holes in the backyard. For trees. Not dead bodies.

I don't like living in a high-class neighborhood, it scares me. Everyone is...rich. Like, they're all stay-at-home moms, and most people own their own freakin buisnesses.

Like, wow. Ah well, at least it's a five minutes walk to school. (And the possibility of dieing, but hey. It comes with the package.)  

I don't like talking to Shayne much, well, I do. but, I don't. More or less because he's creeping me out. He sounds very hollow and...nehhhh. He needs some help.

Here's a link to a crappy sidestory! Whoo, more of my...uh, crap. Yesh.

http://www.fictionpress.com/read.php?storyid=2236160

Nahahaha, I already have three reveiws. My life is sad, I know. No need to tell me.

Actually ...yeah, it is. I need some friends.

On a happier note, they are still airing Gundam Seed, so I still get to watch it, which makes me happy. And, I have one thing to say in honour of Full Metal Alchemist.

RIP Hughes. You were great. Always the funny energetic character. Not to mention the guy who kept Mustang form killing himself.
Poor Roy. But he's so hot.

And that is all.